This is one of those things I have to note down otherwise it鈥檒l get lost to time. And you won’t see this mentioned during ‘Chinese Language Week’ here.
In the old country (鍙板北, or Taishan, China), when my father was a boy in the 1930s and 1940s, there were some wh膩nau in the village who had been to the United States, where his paternal grandfather had settled. When conversing with them about their experiences in foreign lands (specifically, 閲戝北), they said a few things that confused him then, but as an adult it all clicked.
One was when they spoke of their travels to 閲戝北. They claimed, 鈥樿埞闋墦閼艰埞灏捐伣鍞斿害.鈥 As a child, Dad would think, 鈥榃ow, that ship must have been massive.鈥 He knew that if someone had 鎵撻懠 in one village, the next village could hear it. Conclusion: the length of the ship between the bow and stern must be greater than the distance between two villages.
As an adult, 鈥楾he buggers tricked me. No wonder they couldn鈥檛 hear 閼 at the bow of the ship. They would have travelled in the hold!鈥
The second one was in response to, 鈥榃hat are movies like?鈥 I imagine cinemas were thin on the ground during wartime, so he could only ask those who had been to the US. Their response, 鈥樻墦鐓欏〉.鈥 Hitting smoke and dust? (Note that these have to be pronounced in Taishanese, not Cantonese, and definitely not Mandarin, for this story to make any sense.)
Again, as an adult, who wound up grasping English better than many Anglophones, he realized the old 鍙板北闃夸集 had seen westerns, where they fought Indians, or more specifically, Injuns.
The third one was, 鈥榃hat鈥檚 it like speaking English?鈥 The reply: 鈥樺﹢绫績.鈥 He never figured that out as a child鈥攊t sounded like gibberish. Again, when older, having learned English, he realized what they meant: all the same.
Bear in mind those early travellers, or immigrants who were returning to visit the old country, wouldn鈥檛 have had great jobs and learned little English. It isn鈥檛 surprising in this context that they had pidgin phrases, ones they could fool a boy with.
Posts tagged ‘Taishan’
鍙板北闃夸集杩旈剦涓嬭瑳鑻辨枃
12.10.2021Tags: China, Chinese, family, history, humour, language, Taishan, Taishanese, USA, 鍙板北
Posted in China, culture, humour, interests, USA | No Comments »
Going beyond a blacked-out image: thoughts on Black Lives Matter
04.06.2020
Usually I find it easier to express myself in written form. For once, Black Lives Matter and the protests in the US prompted me to record another podcast entry. I鈥檓 not sure where the flat as and the mid-Atlantic vowels come from when I listened to this again鈥攎aybe I was channelling some of the passion I was seeing in the US, and I had watched the news prior to recording this.
My Anchor summary is: ‘Personal thoughts in solidarity with my black friends in the US. Yes, I posted a blackout image on my Instagram but it didn鈥檛 seem to be enough. This is my small contribution, inspired by a Facebook post written by my white American friend Eddie Uken where he reflects on his perspective and privilege.’ Eddie’s Facebook post, which is public, is here.
Tags: 2020, Aotearoa, black American, Black Lives Matter, China, Chinese Communist Party, culture, family, New Zealand, podcast, police, politics, prejudice, privilege, racism, Taishan, USA, Wellington, Whanganui-a-Tara
Posted in China, culture, Hong Kong, New Zealand, politics, USA, Wellington | No Comments »
Eighty-three today with Alzheimer’s: a caregiver’s viewpoint
15.08.2018
Above: Dementia Wellington’s support has been invaluable.
Today my father turned 83.
It鈥檚 a tough life that began during the Sino鈥揓apanese War, with his father being away in the army, and his mother and grandmother were left to raise the family on their land in Taishan, China.
In 1949, the Communists seized the property and the family had to start again, as refugees, in Hong Kong.
Ever the entrepreneur, during the Vietnam War, Dad and his business partner, an US Army doctor by the name of Capt Dr Lawson McClung, set up a mail-order business for deployed troops. As I recall it, Lawson said that he would be able to secure jobs for my parents鈥攎y late mother was a nurse鈥攁t his stepfather鈥檚 hospitals in Tennessee. We either had a US green card, or one was merely procedural.
My mother realized we had family in Aotearoa and I remember going with her to Connaught Tower, to the New Zealand High Commission. I didn鈥檛 know what it was for, but filling in the gaps it must have been to secure forms for immigration. As Plan Bs go, it was a pretty good one.
In 1976 came another move as we headed to New Zealand, originally on holiday, given that my grandfather had taken ill whilst here. As we flew in to Wellington, Dad pointed at the houses below. 鈥楾hose are the sorts of houses New Zealanders live in.鈥 I thought it was fascinating, that they didn鈥檛 live in apartment blocks.
That first night here, on September 16, 1976, it was Dad who tucked me in, which at this point wasn鈥檛 typical: it was usually my grandmother who did this. He asked if I wanted to see the two Corgi toy cars that my grandmother had bought me prior to the trip, which I could have if I behaved myself on the flights. I did. He took them out of the luggage and I had a brief look at them. This was an unfamiliar place but it was just a holiday and things would be back to normal soon.
It was during this holiday that word came that our immigration application had come through. My parents regarded our presence here as serendipitous. They neglected to tell their four-year-old son that plans had changed.
For the first 18 years of my life, I regarded 鈥榯he family鈥 as being my parents and my widowed maternal grandmother, who lived with us ever since I could remember鈥攁nd I remember an awfully long time. We even had a photo taken around 1975鈥6 of the four of us, that I just remember represented everyone dearest to me.
As 鈥榯he family鈥 lost one member to a stroke brought on by Parkinson鈥檚 disease and complications from diabetes, and another to cancer, by 1994 it was just Dad and me.
At the beginning of the 2010s, Dad had a bout of shingles. By 2014 he was forgetting individual words, and I insisted he get checked out for dementia. Around the time of his 80th birthday, in 2015, the diagnosis from the psychogeriatrician was formal, although he could still speak with some stuttering and one or two words unreachable by his brain. The CT scans showed a deterioration of the left side of his brain, his speech centre. Within half a year there would only be one or two words per sentence that were intelligible.
The forms for an enduring power of attorney were drawn up as 2016 commenced. He was still managing, and he had his routines, but in mid-2018 we decided he should get some respite care.
He wasn鈥檛 happy about this, and it took four hours of persuading, as well as a useful and staunch aunt, who got Dad to put on his shoes and head up with us to Ultimate Care Maupuia.
We had thought the second visit in late July would be easier but it took 19 hours over two days, an experience which we do not want to repeat.
Dad had lost the ability to empathize with us and was anxious and agitiated. While he insisted he could look after himself while home alone, there were signs over the last year that indicated he could not. He fell while having the 鈥檉lu in mid-2017 and Amanda and I came to a house with all its lights off. We had no idea how long he had been down. By 2018 he would cry if left home alone. Even at his most insistent that he could look after himself, we returned after the first day of trying to coax him to Maupuia to find that he had not eaten.
The second day was when I called everyone I could think of to find a way to get to respite, since we weren鈥檛 going to be around to look after him.
You name it, I called it, Age Concern aside.
Dementia Wellington, the police, the rest home, Wellington Free Ambulance, Driving Miss Daisy, Care Coordination, Te Haika, and so on. I spoke to 11 people that day.
Te Haika said that the issue wasn鈥檛 mental, but legal, which was about as useful as telling an American Democrat that Donald Trump was the Messiah.
Driving Miss Daisy said that I wasn鈥檛 in their area but a colleague was, not that I ever heard back from that colleague.
Dementia Wellington, the police, and Free Ambulance were brilliant, as was my lawyer, Richard Brandon of Brandons. Our GPs at Kilbirnie Medical Centre were also excellent.
The up shot was that Free Ambulance could take Dad if the enduring power of attorney was enacted, and that would take a declaration of mental incapacity by the GP, which was duly written. He was also good enough to prescribe some medication to calm Dad down.
However, because it wasn鈥檛 an emergency situation, there was no telling when Free Ambulance could come by.
It did make me glad that they were one of the charities I gave to this year.
However, you don鈥檛 ever imagine a situation where you effectively drug your Dad to be able to put his jacket on and take him to a rest home for respite care. I felt like part of the Mission: Impossible team, except the person being drugged wasn鈥檛 a Ruritanian dictator, but someone on the same side. When I say Mission: Impossible, I don鈥檛 mean that series of films with Tom Cruise, either.
On September 16, 1976, you didn鈥檛 think that in 42 years鈥 time your Dad would have dementia and you鈥檇 need to break a promise you made years ago that you would never put him in a home.
You also feel that that photo of 鈥榯he family鈥 has been decimated, that you鈥檙e all alone because the last adult in there isn鈥檛 around any more for you to bounce ideas off and to have a decent conversation with.
I realize I hadn鈥檛 been able to do any of that with Dad for years but it feels that much more painful knowing he can鈥檛 live in a place he calls home presently.
And you also realize that as a virtually full-time caregiver who has cooked for him for years鈥攁nd now you know why I didn鈥檛 reenter politics in 2016鈥攖hat his condition really just crept up on you to a point where what you thought was normal was, in fact, not normal at all.
You also realize that the only other time he was compelled to leave his home without his full volition was 1949, by a régime he had very little time for through most of his lifetime. You don鈥檛 expect to be the next person to have to do that to him, and there鈥檚 a tremendous amount of guilt that comes with that.
Earlier this week, our GP reissued his letter in 鈥楩orm 5鈥 (prescribed under the Protection of Personal and Property Rights Act 1988), which I drafted, since these procedures aren鈥檛 altogether clear. It makes you wonder how people without law degrees might cope. Tomorrow I will meet with Care Coordination and see if Dad can be reassessed based on his current condition. He was only very recently assessed as not needing long-term care so it will be interesting to see if they accept that he has deteriorated to this extent. I鈥檓 not a Mystic Meg who can make a prediction on this.
The rapidity of Dad鈥檚 change鈥攐ne which he himself noticed, as years ago he would complain that his 鈥榖rain felt different today compared to yesterday鈥欌攈as been a surprise to us, although mostly he is happy at Maupuia and interacts positively with the staff. It鈥檚 not all smooth sailing and there are days he wonders when he can come home.
And I find some solace in that his father, and his mother-in-law, wound up in care for less. My grandfather had PTSD from the war and was unable to cook for himself, though even at the end he was bilingual (being educated in the US) and had successfully quit smoking after 70 years. My grandmother needed care because of her insulin injections but was also mentally fit.
But part of me expected that I鈥檇 see it through with Dad to the end, that these rest homes were some western thing that separated families, and here is part of that immigrant experience.
The reason you didn鈥檛 see as many Chinese New Zealanders on welfare wasn鈥檛 down to some massive savings鈥 account, but a certain pride and stoïcism in being to keep it to yourself. You鈥檙e in a strange land where there鈥檚 prejudice, and that鈥檚 often enough for families to say, 鈥楩*** everyone else, we鈥檙e getting on with it and doing it ourselves.鈥
And that鈥檚 what we did as 鈥榯he family鈥. We fought our own battles. Dad was once a helluva correspondent whose letters used words like proffer and the trinity of ult., prox. and inst., and plenty of officials got the sharp end of his writing. When Mum got cancer we brought in our own natural medication because westerners couldn鈥檛 fathom that the same stuff cleared my grandfather鈥檚 liver cancer in 1976 and healed several other members in the whānau. Dad sacrificed everything to try to save Mum and that was the closest example I had of what you鈥檇 do for someone you love.
When you鈥檙e deep in the situation, rationality goes out the window and you鈥檙e on autopilot鈥攁nd often it takes serious situations, like two days鈥 angst and stress of trying to get someone into respite care, to make you think that staying at home isn鈥檛 the best for someone who did, even though he won鈥檛 admit it, thrive under rest home care.
We know that if we left it even later, it would be even tougher to get Dad into care and he would resist his new surroundings more.
Today鈥檚 lunch at Maupuia was curried beef on rice in recognition of Indian Independence Day, a much nicer meal than what I might have made for Dad.
He has staff to hug and laugh with even if I have no idea where he鈥檚 putting his dirty undies.
And while aphasia means he hasn鈥檛 made any new friends yet, I have faith that he鈥檒l do well given the circumstances.
It鈥檚 those circumstances that mean the situation we find ourselves in, with Dad at the home, is one which we鈥檒l roll with, because, like 1949 and 1976, forces outside our control are at play.
I鈥檇 love to make his Alzheimer鈥檚 go away given that I already lost one parent prematurely.
My mind goes to a close friend who recently lost her mother, and her father was killed in a car crash around the time my Mum died. Basically: not all of us are lucky enough to have both our parents peacefully go in their sleep. Many of us are put through a trial. And there鈥檚 a real reason some of us have been hashtagging #FuckAlzheimers on Twitter, if out of sheer frustration.
For those who have made it this far, here are the points I want you to take away.
鈥 Immediately upon finding out your parent has dementia, get your enduring power of attorney sorted out, for both property and personal care.
鈥 Dementia Wellington is an excellent organization so get yourself along to the carer support groups, second Monday of every month. Dementia New Zealand can鈥檛 help at this level.
鈥 Care Coordination has been very helpful and their referral to Dementia Wellington proved more effective than phoning鈥攈owever, I should note that the organization changed for the better between Dad鈥檚 original diagnosis in 2015 and how they are today.
鈥 You do need 鈥楩orm 5鈥 from your GP or someone in a position to assess your parent鈥檚 mental capacity to kick off the enduring power of attorney.
鈥 It鈥檚 OK to cry, feel emotionally drained and ask your friends for support. It鈥檚 your parent. You expected to look after them and sometimes you need to let others do this for everyone鈥檚 good. It doesn鈥檛 mean you love your parent any less. It also doesn鈥檛 mean you are placing yourself or your partner above him. It just means you are finding the best solution all round.
Dad is still “there”, and he recognizes us, even if he doesn鈥檛 really know what day it is, can鈥檛 really cook for himself, and doesn鈥檛 fully understand consequences any more. I鈥檓 glad I spend parts of every day with him while I鈥檓 in Wellington. And while this wasn鈥檛 the 83rd birthday I foresaw at the beginning of the year, he is in a safe, caring environment. I hope the best decision is made for him and for all of us.
Tags: 1949, 1976, 2018, ageing, Aotearoa, China, dementia, elderly care, family, health, health care, Hong Kong, immigration, John Yan, law, Lawson McClung, life, military, New Zealand, Red China, Taishan, travel, US Army, Wellington, Whanganui-a-Tara
Posted in China, culture, general, Hong Kong, New Zealand | No Comments »